Rain descending.Feet coldd...And home computer spoilt.haha..how bliss..Its been raining since yesterday nite..Its a nice change for it has been sunny all week.Its been a nice week. YEs im lying, haha..its not dat nice but yeah, it has been quite smooth except for a certain DOWN. I guess, my mindset will change soon. I have a new year ahead and there's so much things to do and concentrate on. I guess i'll have to move away from certain things and just be heart stoned abt it.WHICH, is rather impossible..I've been thinking hard abt certain things..been talking to a fren abt how we want our life to be in the future and presently.Its been rather tuff on my mind to tink of all this things.so confusing,nice yet hurting.i shall update abt more of it soon..gtg now...

I think there's sth wrong with myself..sth is just not right..if i dont stop it..i mite lose ppl..i mean..frens..i dunooe..wad is wrong with me..i tink im gonna do self isolation..seriously...need some time to myself..till next time...bubbye...

lost my mood to blog..haha..sumtimes certain things are left unsaid...left in the dark corners of ur mind...PeterPan is a cool band..really nice songs..haha...i sumtimes wonder how ppl do blog..How they manage to type so much..haha..i could if i wanted too..but now, the mood isnt just there..30 ppl are gonna swarm my house later..in 2 hrs?maybe?hahaha..they're my cousins from msia..=)

EVER wonder why things just doesn't seem to go the way u want however well u try to make it ur way?
Wonder no more guys..cos u just plain suck...haha..im talking abt myself that is...no offence to ya guys..but u guys mite wanna check urself...whahahahaa..kidding..Well, it's been a rough day..or week..pw kick in with full force..and i feel like just kicking the bucket at full force too..hahaha..okok..kidding..haha..i still wanna live..wadever difficulty i mite face..live..just cldnt seem to get any "better" when i..i tink made a mistake and cause that sum1 to be angry..alalala..sayang dia...haha..but sumtimes, face it la..i just blunder and made a mess of things...Not trying to be anti-social...but i just mess things up for ppl...can i like ever get things done rite for a moment?can i?it seems to be of an illusion..Aniway, MR D..Hold on man..life's not over yet..and certainly..ur life with her is DEFINITELY noT OVER yet..i can guarantee u that man..As long as u still got love between each other..anything is possible..haha...just forget abt my idea to spice things up btween the both of u by encouraging u to buy condom..wahahaha..i was kidding..partly stress for PW and PRomos results..promos?haiiiiiii....Terror has a new word...haha..."im terrified of spiders.."= "im promofied of spiders..".."U dont promofied me!"hahaha..ok..nvm...ok guys, gotta go..tc...

                     To the love of my life...:" Eat the burger k?im sorry k?love u..."

It will appear strange to u when i blog..haha..Well, i do it when i dont feel like talking to ppl..aniways..promos are over..and comes a mixture of YAY!!! and nO!OOoO!...haha..NOnONOoOo..when the results are coming  out...pw is sucking the life out of me..im not doing much abt it though..pity haowen..sorry if i didnt do much to help ya..but i will do it soon..my bills came in again..gonna get A HELL of a scolding later..die la..haha..i was planning to work..i dont feel to good to depend on parents for ur life's needs...u'll feel restricted...feel like u owe them sth..not dat it is wrong...but, as i grow up..i feel more worthless...and im growing up..i'll face a lot of diff tings...i'll face reality slowly..the fact dat im not earning is enough to kill...which means i depends on mY DAD...i dont like feeling this way..seriously...mite as well i earn my own keep...den no one dares to say aniting..I'll get respect in a way..i WANT respect..i yearn for respect...i want it...i want to be independent..and i will....

thanks rev..for ur patience wif tis IT idiot..lol..i really appreciate it..and so...my morbid entries will begin...

Hey ya..exams are finally over..haha..wad a great relief..i got 4 days of holidays..and i reall..really..dunnoe wad to do during them..ahaha..maybe go and get sum precious time of sleep..i could really use a few days to recuperate..i really could..after all dat i've been through..mugging?maybe..haha..all those restless nites...tinking abt my studies..tinking abt stuff dat aches my heart..i guess its finally time to wisen up a little..i hope..sumting can distract me from feeling dis way..sumting can help me pull through dis life..today, and forever..i must say, life isnt always a bed of roses..MIne isnt..cos of certain events dat rock my life, events dat keep messing wif my head...its just too hurtful at times..haha..crapz...lol..ok guys i shall update more..but im too tired..im going back to sleep..tc...

TMR my MID YR!!! Die lah..i haven't study..lol..woah pressure2...These few days have been great..studying and chatting..ups and downs..as usual...Got scolded by my mum for lotsa things..haish..so normal...ntg new to add for these few days..i'll blog once i finished revision..take care guys...:)

My bed room!!!nice???

My family just went to Johor leaving me alone..lol..cool..i got the whole house to myself...haha..just cleaned up the mess just now..and yeah..im gonna stick to my comp for a very long time..Although it just rained at Sembawang arnd 7 a.m..The sun's up and it looks like a fine day here outside my room's window..

   




Cool huh?brite and sunny...

im here bored stiff..haha..but nvm..i'll do my revision..my exam starting next week..i haf a lot of tinking in my mind..i just felt that at times..i just haf to come to face wif reality and just take things easy...my weakness is,i care too much..haha..i dunnoe..whateva has been said to reassure me is not making me feel better..cos many things haf happened and at times i dunnoe wad to believe anymore..
But i just have to be prepared for anything dat will happen..haish..even if i don't like to, i haf to...Haha..most of u guys won't understand wad im talking abt..but for my frens..who noes wad has been going on in my life would...haha...till next time...bubbye~